[Video] Thoughts right after 6-day silent meditation retreat at Dipabhāvan

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  1. Thinking about the ways in which I’m constantly dying | Julia's BlogSeptember 21, 2019 at 12:16 PM

    […] or foreign, for which I’ve had little context for. For instance, I could not imagine what the Dipabhāvan retreat would be like—I’d never had an experience that I felt like I could base my expectations of […]

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